Sunday, May 12, 2013
The Best Job I Never Wanted
As I begin to speak, the words that came out were not what I had in mind! I shared some very personal things that I have spoken about in Relief Society but not in front of the whole congregation. I was somewhat surprised at how honest I was about the fact that I never wanted to be a mom or a wife and the reasons why. I cried as I talked about the fear I had and how I was still unsure of myself at times.
When I got home, I reflected on what I shared and I felt so blessed to be able to stand in front of my ward family and share that I knew that my Heavenly Father loved me because he blessed me with these three amazing spirits to take care of. I am humbled to know that He trusts me to take care of His children and to do the best I can to get them back to Him. I feel so grateful that even when my husband is 6800 miles away and 14 hours ahead of me that I know I am not raising these kids alone, that my Heavenly Father is always walking right along side of me.
This motherhood gig is the hardest thing I have ever done and yet the most rewarding. I honestly smile everyday when I think of my kids. I love the random conversations we have, the silly looks they give me and I especially love when they call me mama.
My prayer for them is that they know how much I love them and that I will always do whatever I can to be their biggest advocate.
I'm so glad that the Lord knew me better than I thought I knew myself when He sent these sweet spirits down to me. Motherhood is the best job I never wanted.