Sometimes it's fun, sometimes it's not. Sometimes there are happy tears and sometimes there as sad tears. Army life is a passionate life. You can experience a realm of emotions that you may not even be able to identify in mere seconds.
I have been to a few homecomings over the past couple weeks. Kevin will be one of the last to come home and yes, that makes me sad but I'm not angry or bitter about it. I know to some it may seem that way when I'm asked. Sometimes it's hard to get questioned again and again. If you're the fifth or sixth person to ask me, you maybe get a curt response but overall this is life.
The hurry up and wait game is typical of Army life. We wait, and yes I'm discouraged that Kevin may miss another one of Daniel's birthday. Explaining to kids is hard, that may be the hardest part of this journey. Yesterday while we were at the cemetery honoring our Veteran's and our Fallen Heroes, I talked to my boys about why it's so important what our Soldier does. We talked about why they have to sacrifice so many things in their life. We talked about how lucky they were to be the children of such an amazing father who sacrificed not only for them but so many in our country. And while there may be people out there who don't recognize their sacrifice, it's important for them to remember and understand why their daddy does what he does. He does it out of love, not only for them but for mankind as a whole. How many kids can say that about their daddy?
Today I watched as families were reunited with their Soldiers. My heart burst with pride and joy. I shed some tears as I saw them become a family again, whole...together. I am truly happy for them. Just because my husband wasn't one of them to walk across the field does not diminish my happiness for them. I am not disgruntled because it's not my turn yet. I don't walk around hating people because it's their moment and not mine. My time will come soon enough and even if dates keep changing, it's okay because he is coming home and I am blessed by that alone.
Two trash days or 52 trash days...I'm married to a Soldier and that makes everyday special, no matter whether we're together or apart.
This is Army life.