Monday, November 19, 2012

Life Isn't Fair!

Today my heart is broken.  I have a deep ache in my chest, it's hard to breathe.  One of our closest family friends is dealing with a tragic loss.  Their daughter was killed on Friday in a horrible accident.  My mind still cannot process it.  I have been in tears since I heard the news.  She was 28, so much life yet to live.  I was truly blessed to know this young lady.  I met her when she was still in college, she was vibrant and so loving.  She watched over my boys even though it made her extremely nervous, especially after Daniel fell down the stairs and busted his lip.  I will never forget the image of her comforting him and the look of compassion and fear on her face.  She only wanted to do her best at everything.  She was so worried I would be upset with her but I couldn't be.  When she decided to go on a mission for our church, I was so happy.  I enjoyed writing letters with her and seeing her grow in the gospel.  I feel so blessed that she chose to keep in touch even afterwards, sending me random messages every couple of months.

Her parents have been such a blessing in our life.  I cannot imagine what they are feeling.  I do know that Heavenly Father is in charge but I still want to rock on my knees and scream WHY!  Our whole family is hurting.  Daniel doesn't remember her but he loves her mom so much and is so sad to know she is hurting.  The older boys are upset and sweet Kevin.  I hate being apart at a time like this when we need each other.  Neither of us slept well, we talked into each other's nights. 

I don't know if I have any more tears, but I still feel on the verge of them all the time. 

I know time will heal us, but I can't imagine how right now.

Please pray for this special family, I know from experience the power of prayer and they need all the love and comfort they can get.

Life just isn't fair...

1 comment:

Jen said...

I am so incredibly sorry. Sending lots of prayers!