Today I was thinking about this blog entry from a couple years ago. Lately I've really been reflecting about some of my friendships. Moving so much is hard on some relationships. I have a best friend who will be my best friend forever, no matter where I go or how much time passes. I can see her once every 10 years and we pick up right where we left off. I am blessed by that. I have a few friendships like that.
I see other friendships lately that I thought were lifetime friendships changing direction and I am not going to lie, it's pretty painful. In a couple of them I gave a lot of myself, physically and emotionally. But like I wrote in that entry referenced above, I have to self-evaluate and know that I didn't do anything to harm the relationship.
Finding friends here has been hard but I think it's because of the wall I put up. I had such great relationships at Hood and it was very hard for me to leave them behind. I really put myself out there for many of them and now I don't even know where half of them stand. So I didn't put myself out there when I moved here and I'm slowly making friendships but I'm not going to lie, it's hard. In the past 6 months I met a girl and she is awesome and a lot like me and like so many of my lifelong friends I have and she's moving in 2 months! I hate this aspect of the Army. It just doesn't seem fair!
Anyway, my whole point of this post is to remind myself there is a reason for everything and I need to focus on the blessings and experiences.