I wonder..are we really where we are supposed to be? Sometimes it's hard to have the faith we need to accept the place we are at.
I like Fort Leonard Wood, it's growing on me. I'm slowly finding my footing here, getting involved and making friends. Yet there is still a HUGE ache in my heart when I allow myself to think about the relationships I built there. I really miss it.
But more so...I miss the opportunities my kids had there. Slowly they are finding things here but it's not the same. My kids all miss Chess terribly..there is nothing really here for them. I tried to contact the high school Chess coach here to see if he knew about anything but like all the other teachers it seems in this school district, he couldn't be bothered with responding. This week, there are state championships in TX, I KNOW my kids would have been there and they would have done well. They worked hard all these years and surely deserve that experience, but instead here we are in a place where no one even cares. I feel bad for them because they mention it.
We try hard to remind them that life is about change and that we go to different places for different experiences. This isn't always an easy lifestyle and lots of sacrifices come. They are slowly finding their footing too. We finally broke down and bought Michael a bassoon since the school district was one again not helpful in that situation and we knew he just wasn't happy with playing the flute. I was able to find one on ebay for a decent price and now he is happy. Neil and Daniel are both making friends. I think Michael is too but he's at that awkward age..we're just trying to do the right thing.
Right now outside of Scouts, the boys are not involved in anything extra-curricular and I really hate that. They aren't really into sports and the sports that were open when we moved here had already started, so even if they wanted to play, they missed the cutoff.
We make a lot of sacrifices in this lifestyle and perhaps we feel it more this time around because we were at Fort Hood for so long (the longest we have ever been) or maybe it's because the boys are getting older. We'll get through this but it is hard.
Sometimes I wonder if we harm our kids with all the moves and changes..
Sometimes I just wish things could stay the same...
Sometimes...you just want things to be the same...just for a little while longer...but only sometimes...