I have been in quite the mood this past week. It's been quite annoying...I can barely stand myself. I feel like I am in a real bah humbug mode. It's hard to break out of it, even though I'm aware of it. I know a lot of it has to do with Kevin being gone and just missing him. I have really awesome friends and I love that they want to include our family but even with that I am struggling. I'm over feeling bad about him being alone as he reminded me quite eloquently that he is NOT alone and never is. This was his Facebook status yesterday:
I am very thankful during this holiday season
for my family. They have stood by me no matter what. I am thankful for
my eternal companion who gives selflessly to our family and others.
Grateful for another family who watches over mine while I am away. I am
not alone on this holiday, my heart is full of the pure love of Christ
who gave selflessly for all. Thank you all for watching over me and my
family. I love you all!
I'm a lucky girl and I really need to work harder to remember that. He had a wonderful Thanksgiving meal at the mess hall with his KATUSAs. He really enjoyed spending that time with them AND he got a great meal. He was still full hours later.
On Thanksgiving Day he will be getting together with a co-worker and some other Soldiers and have some type of Island feast...whatever that means. He is making chili to take...I mean, he can only do so much with a crock-pot, microwave, electric skillet and a George Foreman grill, LOL.
It sucks being apart for holidays but we still are so fortunate to be able to chat and Skype if we want to. I am reminded of my best friend LaNita who is without her love and will never get to spend another holiday with him. I am also reminded that my dear friends, the Phillips, are burying their daughter this week. I am heartbroken.
I need to remember that it's all about perspective and gratitude and I need to have more of both.
I will end this entry with another status from my amazing husband:
"Gratitude is the inward feeling of kindness
received. Thankfulness is the natural impulse to express that feeling.
Thanksgiving is the following of that impulse."
- Henry Van Dyke