I really have no idea what my problem is lately, I am soooooo cranky and my patience level is extremely low, perhaps even non-existant. I'm not so cranky with the family but with a lot of other people in the world. I'd like to think it's everyone else and not me but I don't think it's true.
Although....the people who are really irritating me lately are doing stupid things and that just adds to the crankiness. It seems that the people I have to deal with have the qualities that annoy the crap out of me. I admit that I can be someone kind of hard to deal with and I'm not the most social person out there, I wouldn't even go as far as to call myself friendly but I am a caring individual.
I cannot stand people who call themselves Christians, the ones who stand behind their Christianity as a way of being able to do and say what they want. Those are some of the people I have to deal with. They go off on you and then lay their Christian bit on you like that is supposed to redeem their previous actions.
I am a Christian, one who has many flaws (like crankiness). I'd much rather have my actions speak louder then any announcement of my beliefs would. I admit I'm not always the best example but I do try.
I don't understand people who feel the need to be rude. I know a lot of people don't understand my very standoffish, aggressive personality but I don't have to be rude to get my point across and there are so many people who feel that they have to be that way to get ahead in the world.
I really try hard to stress to my kids the importance of manners and courtesy. That is really a hard lesson to teach these days when most people don't care about them. There is no better confirmation that I'm doing my job as a mother then hearing compliments about how well behaved and well mannered my kids are. They may fight me on showers and eating vegetables but they know how to say please and thank you and how to hold a door open for others. I suppose it all evens out.
I have a doctor appointment tomorrow and I hope that she can help me figure out this mood I'm in. I don't really like feeling this way, I feel very off center and I hate that. I literally avoid people because I don't want to hurt people's feelings and I know I will because while I'm always honest and a little too blunt for my own good, it's at a point where I might hurt people with words and that's just not nice. I read a lesson once that said Charity is also not saying things at times when we think they need to be said...that's a lesson I have to work on daily!
So that's my crazy ramble for the day.
Here's Nadine's advice for today...don't ask for honest opinions if you don't really want to hear them!