*I tried to post this yesterday...*
Today was a bittersweet day. Today our Brigade reflagged to a new unit. We are no longer 4th ID, we have now joined the "First Team" under 1st CAV. 1st Cavalry has some great history however, I admit that it was hard to watch them case the colors we've served under since we got here. We have been with 4th BCT, 4th ID since it stood up, Kevin being one of the first Soldiers in the Brigade. We have a lot of emotion invested in this Brigade...I truly believe our Soldiers have accomplished so much in just a little bit of time. There is a lot of legacy that was cased along with those colors.
It's so weird because I was really sad throughout the ceremony. The Army is all about change and so why was this so hard? I think it's because my heart is truly invested in this Brigade. I have made great friends, we have lost friends, I have had invested a lot of me into this and it was hard to close this chapter. I was also torn between the two units we have served with in this Brigade. Obviously my heart is still attached to the unit Kevin deployed with and it was a tough year but there were also many rewards. Today after the ceremony I went to the "old" unit and I remembered why I loved it there. Soldiers know me there, they give me hugs, they give me smiles...I love that. I love Soldiers...they make me happy...I love hearing them call cadence, I love seeing the ceremonies they participate in. I love the connection I've always had with Soldiers...they become my children.
After that I went to my "new" unit and let me tell you, the atmosphere is different. I don't know what it is. I do acknowledge that I probably have a wall up...something to protect me because I was hurt when Soldiers died and were wounded or when I felt I wasn't doing what I needed to for my families. I am not as invested in this new unit...I am coming around...I know it will happen...and perhaps that is why it's different. But we are approaching deployment soon and I feel the heart strings pulling me in...I know I will become attached.
I think it's time to close the chapter on the last deployment...to move forward...to bring in the new and I think our casing of our colors did that for me today...
It will take a bit of getting used to the new patch...the new Division but we'll be fine.
It's all about the moving forward and embracing new experiences...
Today was a bittersweet day. Today our Brigade reflagged to a new unit. We are no longer 4th ID, we have now joined the "First Team" under 1st CAV. 1st Cavalry has some great history however, I admit that it was hard to watch them case the colors we've served under since we got here. We have been with 4th BCT, 4th ID since it stood up, Kevin being one of the first Soldiers in the Brigade. We have a lot of emotion invested in this Brigade...I truly believe our Soldiers have accomplished so much in just a little bit of time. There is a lot of legacy that was cased along with those colors.
It's so weird because I was really sad throughout the ceremony. The Army is all about change and so why was this so hard? I think it's because my heart is truly invested in this Brigade. I have made great friends, we have lost friends, I have had invested a lot of me into this and it was hard to close this chapter. I was also torn between the two units we have served with in this Brigade. Obviously my heart is still attached to the unit Kevin deployed with and it was a tough year but there were also many rewards. Today after the ceremony I went to the "old" unit and I remembered why I loved it there. Soldiers know me there, they give me hugs, they give me smiles...I love that. I love Soldiers...they make me happy...I love hearing them call cadence, I love seeing the ceremonies they participate in. I love the connection I've always had with Soldiers...they become my children.
After that I went to my "new" unit and let me tell you, the atmosphere is different. I don't know what it is. I do acknowledge that I probably have a wall up...something to protect me because I was hurt when Soldiers died and were wounded or when I felt I wasn't doing what I needed to for my families. I am not as invested in this new unit...I am coming around...I know it will happen...and perhaps that is why it's different. But we are approaching deployment soon and I feel the heart strings pulling me in...I know I will become attached.
I think it's time to close the chapter on the last deployment...to move forward...to bring in the new and I think our casing of our colors did that for me today...
It will take a bit of getting used to the new patch...the new Division but we'll be fine.
It's all about the moving forward and embracing new experiences...
When slide.com wants to play nice I will share the slideshow...
3 comments:
oh man... we underwent the transformation here not too long ago and i completely know what you are talking about. it's so sad and and everything you wrote about was so true.
I so enjoy reading your thoughts and updates on your husband's unit. I 'think' my son is in this unit. I like to keep up on what's happening in his army from a distance. :-) I'm glad I found your blog.
Totally Army Mom
I hope that if your son is in our unit you will let me know if there is anything I can do for you.
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